There are some days I want to hide from it all - diabetes, housework, post-cholecystectomy syndrome, work, errands, taxiing kids and hubby... On days like that I try to step back and figure out why I'm wanting a mini-escape. Usually it's because I put very high expectations on myself which causes me to burn out a little. Perfect glucose levels, perfect house, perfect children, perfect me. I know that some days I'm just trying to prove to myself (and others) that I have it all put together. I'm perfectly organized. My children are perfectly behaved. Afterall, there are five of them, so some days I feel like I'm under a microscope. My glucose levels are at non-diabetic perfect levels.
Who am I fooling?
This week I've gone from lows causing me the shakes to sick to my stomach highs. I just realized tonight that I'm double booked Sunday night. I need Clean Sweep to come and bulldoze a couple kid rooms. As our family schedule changes, I need to adjust and adapt. My stress level has gone up a little and I've noticed it in my patience level. I think tonight I need an early bedtime with some prayer and meditation. Spending some quiet time with God always helps me to refocus.