Monday, May 31, 2010

Memorial Day thoughts

This morning we had a pretty good thunder storm that dropped about an inch of rain. My youngest (5 yrs) came up to me and asked if the rain was like tears of sadness. In a way I think she's right. I'm sure God doesn't like that so many people had to die while in service to our country, or any other for that matter. God doesn't like fighting. He weeps when His people fight. He rejoices in peace.

Like God, I hurt when my children hurt. I cry when they cry. I laugh when they laugh. I look at our flag, proudly flying outside, and I say a prayer for all the men and women that have lost their lives so that I can display that flag. All the lives lost so that we may live in the comfort that we enjoy. Thanks to them my daughters have opportunities that they wouldn't have in other countries.

Thank you to all of the men and women who put their lives on the line for us. A special thank you to those who lost their lives in the line of duty!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

It is all in my hands

My knees hurt - I have the power to stop the pain through exercise to strengthen the muscles in my knees.
My glucose goes high - I have the power to control my carb intake and activity level to keep my glucose within my goals.
My energy level is down - I have the power to eat healthy foods and get off my rear.

It is all in my hands!

Instead of complaining, I need to do something.  It's like complaining about the living room being cluttered while just sitting on the couch.  Once I got up and took responsibility for picking up the room the problem was taken care of.  Now I can relax and enjoy watching tv with my family instead of getting upset about the clutter on the coffee table, backpacks on the floor, and papers on the side table. 

It is all in my hands!

Instead of complaining about my glucose levels after eating a king size Snickers bar... oh we know where this is going.  It's not so bad eating half of a king size Snickers at my snack time right before some kind of physical activity.  Eating one all by myself and then sitting on my rear, not such a good idea.

It is all in my hands!

Quite often I try to remind myself that my medical conditions will be with me until a cure is found.  I can't control that.  However I have a choice how I respond.  I can either sit on my butt, sulk, and feel terrible or I can do what I need to do to take care of myself (eat right, exercise, etc.). 

It is all in my hands!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Regroup and refocus

There are some days I want to hide from it all - diabetes, housework, post-cholecystectomy syndrome, work, errands, taxiing kids and hubby...  On days like that I try to step back and figure out why I'm wanting a mini-escape.  Usually it's because I put very high expectations on myself which causes me to burn out a little.  Perfect glucose levels, perfect house, perfect children, perfect me.  I know that some days I'm just trying to prove to myself (and others) that I have it all put together.  I'm perfectly organized.  My children are perfectly behaved.  Afterall, there are five of them, so some days I feel like I'm under a microscope.  My glucose levels are at non-diabetic perfect levels.

Who am I fooling?

This week I've gone from lows causing me the shakes to sick to my stomach highs.  I just realized tonight that I'm double booked Sunday night.  I need Clean Sweep to come and bulldoze a couple kid rooms.  As our family schedule changes, I need to adjust and adapt.  My stress level has gone up a little and I've noticed it in my patience level.  I think tonight I need an early bedtime with some prayer and meditation.  Spending some quiet time with God always helps me to refocus.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Happy Mother's Day!

Yesterday was a great Mother's Day.  Since my birthday was just last month, I told my husband that I didn't want any presents.  I wanted to get some flowers for the front garden, but not anything else.  We got a flat of flowers and lots of mulch.  I had three wonderful meals made for me (omelet for breakfast, burgers for lunch, and shrimp for dinner).  After lunch I was given two gifts.  Of course I had to give my husband grief for buying me something before opening them.  My two gifts were a box of Triscuits and a bag of Fritos, two of my favorite snacks. 

A belated Mother's Day to all the mothers, women who mother others, as well as the men who have had to step into the roll.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Oh the irony

I just went to the store to get a couple things we need for tomorrow, so I decided to get some dessert for hubby, the two teenagers, and myself (shhh, the other three kids are asleep).  Ben & Jerry's ice cream is a great choice if you want to get each person what they really like.  That would be fine if I could actually eat one serving.  Did you know that those things are actually FOUR servings???  Umm, what world are they living in?  I can eat that small container in one sitting.  Well, I did... before I got hit with the big D.  So tonight my dessert is a bag of honey cashews (two servings of 12 carbs each - yes, I might eat it all) and a bottle of diet Coke.  I've been offered spoons of Chocolate Fudge Brownie and Peanut Butter Cup, but I know that would mess up my honey cashew pallet.

Honestly I'm enjoying the cashews which also have a lot less fat and calories than their ice cream.  Since I'm trying to lose 10 lbs, I think this is a better choice.  YUM!

Search engine fun

I was introduced to StatCounter recently by another blogger (Hi, Kerri!), and I've found it interesting to find out how others have found my blog.  Most of my readers are friends, but occasionally various search engines lead people over.  Some of the keyword searches that have lead people to my blog have been:

  • youtube composting wiggly worm   
  • type 2 diabetes and kashi   
  • what's it like to have diabetes
  • engrossed in a book
  • sugar induced moodswing
  • shrimp chimichangas
Sometimes I wonder how people come up with the words or phrases they use to search.  I'm glad that a few are diabetes-related.  My goal of this blog is mainly to have a place where I can let out my frustration but also to share with others with Type 2 diabetes so they know they're not alone.  Thanks for letting me share my struggle with you!