When I was diagnosed, there was a small time where diabetes was a novelty. I like gadgets, so picking out a glucose meter was almost fun. Testing was fun at first. Counting carbs was fun at the beginning. The novelty quickly wore off.
The permanence of a chronic disease started to sink in. I realized that this wouldn't go away. Diabetes would be with me for the rest of my life whether I liked it or not.
Most days I can deal with diabetes. However there a too many days where I'm in denial. Those days are often followed by days where I get down about having diabetes. Thankfully when I'm having a rough time, I know I can call upon my family and the DOC (diabetes online community).
One step at a time...
It's so great to know that we're not alone in this. One day at a time.
ReplyDeleteI didn't find any of it fun. I already had medical gadgets, a cpap machine, a defibrillator, a blood pressure machine, compression stockings, a peak flow monitor...the list goes on and on. But for all the angst I have about this, sometimes I get frustrated by the things that I can't self monitor like my electrolyte levels. During those times I just shake my head and remember the monitors I do have. The fact that they will never go away and I will always have to have them can get me down, But it doesn't matter, they are here to stay.
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