There are some days I take the time to think about all the blessings I have, how good I have it compared to many others,. My wonderful husband and I have been blessed with five wonderful, healthy girls. We live in a wonderful community with a great house. Why is it then that I have days where I just want to cry? My weight loss is at a standstill. I could be happy at this weight if I hadn't been 10 lbs lighter just a year ago. I know that if I lose a little more weight that my glucose levels will be easier to maintain. I'm sick of diabetes! It saddens me... hmmm... no... It pisses me off that I'm going to have to deal with this for the rest of my life. I get mad some days and other days it drags me down. My beautiful children have the odds stacked against them. Given that there is no known cure for Type 2 diabetes and the fact that sometimes genetics sucks, most if not all of my five girls will become diabetic in the next 20-30 years.
This blog has become my place to let out my feelings, to ramble. I usually try to make life seem so rosy, but it isn't always. Don't get me wrong - I wouldn't trade my life for anything. My troubles are so tiny compared to others. There are just times where I'd like to get rid of little parts of my life, the largest part being diabetes.
I want to be an advocate, an educator, for those with diabetes. I would like to become a CDE (Certified Diabetes Educator) but that requires a medical degree of some kind (nurse, doctor, etc). I would also like to become a dietitian but that too requires additional college. I would like to find something that requires a few workshops or training sessions. I've already read and studied some much about diabetes that I want to share with others who have not had similar opportunities. I want to make a difference!