Two years ago, I ate all the Easter chocolate I wanted. Why not? I could! I was a normal woman approaching 38 years old. I felt a little sick and sluggish but I figured that was just the way my body reacted to the amount of chocolate I had eaten. Little did I know that the next day I would get a phone call from the nurse letting me know that I had Type 2 diabetes.
I don't remember much about last year's Easter to be honest. I don't remember how I handled the candy temptation. I don't remember what the Easter bunny left for me among the chocolate bunnies and jelly beans.
Today I went shopping for the Easter goodies. The kids and hubby each have their own chocolate bunny. There is also a variety of other candies including Snickers, jelly beans, Hershey's kisses, etc. For my chocolate treat, the Easter bunny will be bringing me one of my favorite Kashi treats - yummy granola bars covered with a layer of dark chocolate and coconut. YUM!
This afternoon I was in a mood. It's hard to describe. I felt saddened that there was something I need, something that was missing. I wandered around the store for a while after putting in my cart the things I needed. I felt that there was something missing, but I had no idea what it was. While talking to hubby later, I actually teared up. Some days I feel that my mood swings caused by diabetes are worse than PMS. My sugar has been off since last night when I decided to have pizza last night for dinner. I'm usually ok with thin crust pizza, but this was a thicker, carb-heavy crust. I know better than to have this pizza, but it tasted so good. I need to find a compromise between eating what I want vs keeping my sugar in check. I've decided that I either need to stick with the thin crust place that works well for me or get a big salad and only have one piece of the glucose-raising pizza.
My wish is that some day all people with diabetes will be able to eat all the special treats that come with the special days with their family. Here's praying for a cure!