Tuesday, November 23, 2010

It's hanging on the wall

Tuesday, November 23, 2010
What's on your wall: prints, posters, photos, paintings? What makes you want to hang something up?

I'm going to focus on the wall above my computer.  It has some signs that my 14 yr old made as a reminder to buy a new power cord for the "kid" laptop.  Of course a few weeks after it was replaced, the cord was tripped over and pulled out the tip enough to cause it not to work.  I've left the signs up to remind me to order another one.  I also have a sign from last years Step Out walk.  It says on it "Sue's Sweeites", the name of my team from last year.  Above all that is a sign my 9 yr old made when she was 8 and in VBS (Vacation Bible School) that says "VBS is my FAVORITE thing!" (followed by five rows of exclamation points)

There's no fancy artwork, though some of the power cord reminder signs have some cute drawings.  Nothing that would be hung in an art gallery.  Nothing that would be in a doctor's office.  Everything here is family-centered.  It shows how much my family means to me.  They are the center of my universe. 

The walk team sign is at the center.  My family is my central focus.  They are the reason that I fight.  They are the reason I am so motivated to keep in control of my diabetes.  I call it "my diabetes" because I own it.  Diabetes doesn't own me.  I have to keep diabetes in focus in order to make sure that I stay in control.  On days I've ignored diabetes, my diet and exercise are not where they should be.  As a result my numbers are way off.  I feel like the stuff that sticks to the bottom of your shoe.  I'm not a pleasant person to be around. 

Yes, I would love to ignore my diabetes.  I'd love to pretend like it doesn't exist.  However, like the team sign on my wall, it's right in front and at the center of everything.  My family are still there.  They are the best support system I could ever have, but I need to take care of myself so that I can be there for them.  Some day that team sign will come down off my wall, but my team will always be there for me.  As I hope to be there for them!

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